Thursday, January 29, 2004
never got to say i'm here
never got to say goodbye
never got to say i'm sorry
never got to say i care
i'm hearing but not listening
seeing but not watching
waiting but not anticipating
hoping but not wishing
tired...tired of this life, if this lie
when what is said is not what is done
take me away...away from here
come what may, to see you once again...
found a pot of gold@ 06:52
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Wednesday, January 28, 2004
Yolanda, a 3-syllable girl's name of Greek origin, means: Flower; a violet; modest.
Yolanda's ethnic backgrounds include Hispanic.
Nicknames for Yolanda are Eolande, Iolande and Yolane.
Other names associated with Yolanda are Iolanthe, Yolande and Yolanthe.
found a pot of gold@ 12:45
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Tuesday, January 27, 2004
ok this skin is only gonna stay here for a while before i change to something else... but ohhhhh SEX-XY.... yum!
found a pot of gold@ 09:01
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my poor hewitt lost! boohoo but its ok! there's still next year and the next next year and the year after next next year and the year after the year after the next next year.... oh u get the picture!
somehow i seem to think that Hewitt plays better when he's playing for his country than for himself, like in Davis Cup, World Group etc.. he will be unbeatable, but not so much for himself... i mean he's still good, but not as good as the form he's in when he plays for his country.
let's see the match.... fabulous match... i've never got so excited abt any match 'cept for the time when Hewitt played Roddick in the French and US Open and the Agassi-Sampras match at the US Open 2 years back.
ok back to the match... Hewitt got off to a fantastic start breaking Federer's serve in the very first game and went on to win 6-4. Federer was really off his game and Hewitt was not at his peak too but better than Federer anyway.
2nd set, Federer was still off his game but starting to pick up the pieces. was leading 3-2 on Hewitt's serve when Hewitt hit an ace but was called for a footfault at game point by a stupid linesman, i'm being objective here 'cos it obviously wasnt a footfault if u see the replay...even the commentators said so... so there u go... and i think that got to him a little and he lost that service game to Federer. and Federer just pick it up from there playing an almost flawless game, plus a little help from Hewitt lapsed of concentration as well. he wasnt running for the balls as much as he could have but i doubt he could have gotten to most cos fedeer was unbelievable. but he made a couple of fantastic defensive shots which no one else would have been able to do so. and he saved 2 match points before conceding the match to federer. still unable to beat Magnus Norman who saved
17! match points before losing to Gustavo Kurten at the French Open
all in all it was a good match... i was like jumping about in my seat every 5 mins. anywya Roddick-Safin match later! should be a good one too! ah! the beauty of tennis, where every shot is like a masterpiece...well almost every
one thing i like abt the Australian crowd is that they appreciate good tennis, and not just blind one sided support of their countrymen. i so cant wait to go to the Aus Open.. soon!!! supposed to go this year but..... well u know... oh well!
found a pot of gold@ 06:40
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Sunday, January 25, 2004
its chinese new year and i'm sick! how great can that be. apart from not being able to eat my fav. food i have to miss my aussie open too cos of all the visiting... bah... not that i'm complaining what's with all the red packets! but its going into my bank account which i vow not to spend! :(
roddick's into the next round waiting for the hewitt-federer match... i so hope he wins! please please pretty please! off with federer! down with federer! i dun remember him having played federer though.. let me check yep he's 7-2 over federer so he stands a good chance of winning! yeah!
Vamos Vamos oei oei oei! Just Dewitt Hewitt! C'mon! now i just have to figure how to watch the match since i'm
working! damn it!!! should i request for an earlier schedule? maybe i should... hmmm...
anyway have to go! ta!
found a pot of gold@ 13:43
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Monday, January 19, 2004
my roddickins is playing now! roddickins roddickins! *smooches* haha!oh so cute.. and oh! no mandy! yeah!
found a pot of gold@ 05:29
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Sunday, January 18, 2004
my WHOLE body is ACHING! ouch ouch ouch! i went swimming on friday, and played tennis on saturday... its been wat? 7 months since i played tennis? its was terrible... i missed
quite a few balls... so embarrassing! haha oh well but it was fun and it feels sssooooo good to pick up a racquet again! my baby! though not good that my body is aching.... :( now i just want to hit the gym and maybe work on my ass or something! i want a nice perky ass! ;P haaha
oh anyway...
i dun really like pineapples but i so
lluuuuuuuuuurrrrrrvvvvvveeeeee pineapple tarts! yummy! and cny is coming! so i can eat tonnes and tonnes of pineapple tarts! and then i have to play more tennis and swim more after that...
and i still need to go shop for my cny clothings! i have managed to convince my mom that the tops i bought from Aus aren't suitable for CNY so now i get to buy more clothes! yeah! actually i dun see y i shd buy so many clothes esp. since i always wear the same old few and the rest just like rot in my cardboard... but i just like the feeling of spending money... so yeah... even though i'm not like loaded or somethign...
alright i'm way to perky for my liking today so i guess i shd stop! BYYYYYEEEE
found a pot of gold@ 06:34
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Friday, January 16, 2004
one piece of advice to all. if u are feeling really tired from working and just wanna dive into bed and sleep, NEVER NEVER EVER drink Milo before that. and i seriously think there's soemthing wrong with me these days cos i have been sleeping really little... or rather i have been waking up rather early to be normal. the normal me wakes up only after 11 without an alarm but nowadays i wake up at like 8 or 9 without an alarm.. must be work... screwing me up.
anyway something Nyd said yest just struck me. she said something like wishing she had my attitute towards guys. and i just go hmmm... so wats my attitute towards guys... actually i have never really tot of this till now, but i guess everyone's having the impression that i hate guys or simply not being too bothered abt them since the only guys i talk abt almost literally doesnt exist, in my world that is(ie.
andy markie and
kimi! oh the cuties! haha!) and the only real crush they know about is a really ancient one... THAT one. and i suppose it doesnt help that i always slam guys and get into another of those
i-hate-guys phrase
i dun exactly hate guys nor am i lesbain. i just hate guys when they are really shallow and superficial and have a really really really awful taste. doesnt help that they are dumb and can act like total idiot(did i just say that i
dun hate guys?) i just dun think of guys romantically u know. i cant see how people can get together just cos one knew that the other person like him or her( i've known of such cases) or just because someone is pretty or handsome or watsoever and i just cant do that cos obviously it will be unfair to the other person and how can u get together with someone u dun like.
i kinda came to a conclusion that i'm incapable of allowing myself to be liked by someone else, not even by someone i fancy. i recently read a true life love story where the couple, from a wee age of twelve knew they were going to marry each other the moment they laid their eyes on each other across the corridor. neither of them dated anyone else and they only got together like a few years later... now they are happily married. this is the sweetest thing i've even read and just perhaps i am waiting for something like this to happen, or perhaps i just wanna live my life alone.
pardon my paradoxical way of thinking, when i had just said that i dun see how people can get together just like *snaps finger* that and here i am dreaming of a fairytale.
i dunno. but right now i just dun see the point of a relationship when i can do anything i want with my life without commiting to anything or anyone. its not about giving the other person a chance. i believe that if its meant to be it will happen. sure sometimes u have to work for wat u want, but u have to be sure that wat ur going after is worth ur effort. and no one is worth me fighting over or giving up my life right now, which may explain, as tar puts it my not being "subservient" to any guy in my friendster testimonial.
well its not plain coincidental that i scored a 0% on the test below!
found a pot of gold@ 06:48
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Thursday, January 15, 2004
ok i think this is rather accurate... considering that i scored 0% on the test... its not something to be proud of though! haha
found a pot of gold@ 09:05
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Tuesday, January 13, 2004
off today... wondering what nyd is doing at work now?? serving daniel and jean??
anyway in somewhat of a pms mood lately..felt like crying alot... unbalanced hormones i tell ya. like on sunday after work i just bawled my eyes out after work.... 'cos of a bloody shitty customer and a rather misfortune day( i slipped and fell on my back in the middle of orchard road! and my whole body is hurting still...) its quite a bad fall but no serious injuries... and i had to deal with horrible people the whole day... not just at work... i'm not saying my job's no good... in fact i quite like it 'cept for some stupid demanding customers who are just out0 to make waiters/waitresses lifes hell and stressful with their special instructions! the people there are fine... my co-workers...raymond has been patient...so far with my slowness at keying in the menu and small hands(usually i have to make 2 trips when serving cos i cant carry more than 2 plates as i'm afraid i'll drop them all)... daphne has been really helpful though i think i made her kinda irritated with some switching of tables incident... eric has more than once saved my skin by settling my mistakes, whether intentionally or unintentionally(esp. on sunday!) janet's fun to joke ard... and of 'cos nyd! a familiar face i can turn to for watever things. i'm so glad to work with someone i know esp. on the first day...
back to my unbalance hormones... just the other day,cant remember whetehr it was after work or what... i was just waiting for the train and i just started missing jessica really really badly and i just felt really lonely, like everyone's that's anyone to me is just like gone...or drifting away, and i just wanna sit there and cry. but i felt really silly after that 'cos i think jess should be the one crying and missin us... missing me instead!(lol!) since she's alone over there and i still ahve my frens ard me.... at least for a few more months
speaking of the devil, i'm actually talking to the idiot right now :)
feel lumpy... shall go for a run or something later.... before meeting cyn and lyd for gelare! haha!
found a pot of gold@ 05:58
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Saturday, January 10, 2004
hey guys! my comps finally fixed!! but i lost all my files and pictures!! boohoohoo!! i want my andy roddick back! and all my lovely pictures... of me!! and stuff! boohoo! oh well nvm i got most fo them from xiu anyway so yeah shall get the pics from ehr soon...
started work.... waitressing with Nyd at Novena Square... it is ok.... i'm not sure if the food's nice but they sure smell good... i have to stop myself from drooling all over the bowls/plates when i serve them. and i have to work tomorrow evening!! SUNDAY AND I'M WORKING! blah! but its only 5hrs so yeah not too bad... hopefully there's a cute guy for me to kill time staring... so far havent since any... though Nyd thinks one ang moh is not bad... but oh well u know nyd's taste other than legolas and andy roddick! haha jkjk
anyway wonder how Jess is doing in the states... saw any cute guys yet?? any boyfriendS yet?!?! better write soon or i'll SKIN u next tiem i see u!
found a pot of gold@ 13:40
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Friday, January 02, 2004
Stole this from Xiu's blog
Your name*: YO-LAN-DA!
*Your age: 18
Your *favorite color: that's tough... silver? or white or black or blue.. haha
Your least *favorite color: grey...green
Pets*: bring the 's' before the 't' and i'll have one pest at home
S*ibilings: one bro
Name(s)*: philbert aka manybird aka the pest i have at home
Best*Friend(s): no one but i ahve tonnes of good frens though
Your* Grade Level: just completed As
Your School*: dodo sch njc
*Screen-name most used: err toss up between woodies, greenleaf(haha!) and eeY0re
Eye *color: brown/black watever
Ha*ir color: copper? i dunno! right out of a tube!
A word that describes you*: B-I-T-C-H
One person you can ALWAYS count on*: me myself and i?
*Your hero/heroin: i dunno.. but if u mean prince charming then i've got a few! haha
True love*: now we're talking! haha... anyway i think the qns should read
true loveS haha come lets see.. markie andy kimi lee legolas blah blah blah.. and the list goes on and on and on! lol!
Best* online *friend: pat i guess... she's one of my oldest online frens(gosh when did we start knowing each other!) whom i still keep in touch with... maybe pete too oh well!
Favorite Food**: oh dear this is tough... chocolates? basically anything ncie and edible
**Favorite Place to be: anywhere away from sg with tonnes of cute guys! haha nah... i like Aus... Korea is good btu i wouldnt wanna stay ther cos its way too cold.. oh but me and Tar would agree on IRELAND! haha actually i think she would go for NZ instead.. oh well...
Favorite* number: 13!! lucky 13!
Last question O.o
Are you BORED?!: why do u think i'm doing this!
found a pot of gold@ 05:06
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Thursday, January 01, 2004
First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR U GUYS! calling out to Pat Sherm Cyn Jess on all the regulars on the blog.. u know who u are.... Have a great year ahead!
i'm still too lazy to write an account of my trip... but boy! the cute guys! *evil laughs* as i've told nyd and xiu! haha! so i shall write about yest's countdown first before going on with the trip.
went for dinner first with err.. Man Chi, Andrew(gayboy!) Alvin "dick" tay, Sze Khing and Shux... at Sakae Sushi, WHeelock one... talking abt Man Chi's new bf and Shux's gay officer who's hitting on him! haha then met Nyd and Xiu at Borders before proceeding to Venezia ice-cream at Taka... yum yum! i ate the Belgium Choco and Xiu has Giandula right?? and Nyd has Dark Choco! but mine is still the nicest! heehee
then we met up with Rach at Zouk...again... and we saw Andrew Boey Jas and her frens... it was ok.... i mean the people i went with were fun but i just wasnt in the mood to party... like when it was midnight all of us just go HAPPY NEW YEAR and stuff btu inside i was thinking yeah yeah whatever.. its new year... so? but i got high after the Bourbon and that's when i started enjoying myself more... so lesson no 1... wanna get Yol enthu.. buy her a drink... but either way... next time u wanna go clubbing.. be sure to bring Rach along haha...
ok anyway, let's go to the trip... it was.... err... quite an adventure.... shall i go day by day or wat? oh lets go day by day... its more interesting and there will be more suspense!
Day 1 23rd Dec
went to the airport like freaking early 'cos
my flight was at 7?!! didnt get to see shermeen at the airport though. went
onboard Qantas QF 77 with my family, my mom's older sis' family and younger sis'
family and saw a cute guy no. 1! and hell he looks like a younger version oooooofffffffffff.... LEGOLAS! i swear he's like a dead ringger for Legolas...he has the features of orlando... BUT! he has BLOND HAIR! and it goes down to his chin.. if only he had like comb it back like Legolas instead of centre parting it... oh boy! he was a few seats behind me on the plane... oh boy! haha yeah he's soooo cute! oh boy oh boy! haha talk about me hating guys huh! haha, but what can i say! HE LOOKS LIKE LEGOLAS! *drool*
anyway we stayed at this place at Joondalup up north... kinda like a chalet but its a residential area...
Day 2 24th Jan X'mas Eve
ok i cant remember what i did this day.. haha lets see.. did i go shopping? no?? hmmm oh well.. shall i do this another day?? ok! haha! sorry guys! but i need to knock my head a couple of times on the wall before i recall anything! talk about short term memory loss... is it what its called? or is it simply poor memory?! oh heck bye for now! be back later or tomorrow!
found a pot of gold@ 06:16
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