Tuesday, January 13, 2004
off today... wondering what nyd is doing at work now?? serving daniel and jean??
anyway in somewhat of a pms mood lately..felt like crying alot... unbalanced hormones i tell ya. like on sunday after work i just bawled my eyes out after work.... 'cos of a bloody shitty customer and a rather misfortune day( i slipped and fell on my back in the middle of orchard road! and my whole body is hurting still...) its quite a bad fall but no serious injuries... and i had to deal with horrible people the whole day... not just at work... i'm not saying my job's no good... in fact i quite like it 'cept for some stupid demanding customers who are just out0 to make waiters/waitresses lifes hell and stressful with their special instructions! the people there are fine... my co-workers...raymond has been patient...so far with my slowness at keying in the menu and small hands(usually i have to make 2 trips when serving cos i cant carry more than 2 plates as i'm afraid i'll drop them all)... daphne has been really helpful though i think i made her kinda irritated with some switching of tables incident... eric has more than once saved my skin by settling my mistakes, whether intentionally or unintentionally(esp. on sunday!) janet's fun to joke ard... and of 'cos nyd! a familiar face i can turn to for watever things. i'm so glad to work with someone i know esp. on the first day...
back to my unbalance hormones... just the other day,cant remember whetehr it was after work or what... i was just waiting for the train and i just started missing jessica really really badly and i just felt really lonely, like everyone's that's anyone to me is just like gone...or drifting away, and i just wanna sit there and cry. but i felt really silly after that 'cos i think jess should be the one crying and missin us... missing me instead!(lol!) since she's alone over there and i still ahve my frens ard me.... at least for a few more months
speaking of the devil, i'm actually talking to the idiot right now :)
feel lumpy... shall go for a run or something later.... before meeting cyn and lyd for gelare! haha!
found a pot of gold@ 05:58
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"One Art"
The art of losing isn't hard to master;
So many things seem filled with the intent
To be lost that their loss is no disaster.
Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost keys, the hour badlly spent
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.
I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owne, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.
-Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.
-Elizabeth Bishop
