Wednesday, November 23, 2005
when i was having a conversation with ven the other day, she asked me why i wanted to take psychology..
and i realised i didnt know the answer...i knew this was wat i wanted to do in sec sch...well at least i was interested... but yeah i still didnt know the reason why...
n then she said ppl usually take psych so tt they can find out abt themselves...n tt while we r able to understand ppl, we never seem to know who we really are....
got me thinking....and reflecting on it, i agree with her... one of the greatest mysteries in the world is the "me" according to william james, which i just studied...there r so many theories abt human behaviour but none of them is conclusive...n ppl who study psych definitely do think more abt themselves than others...
which is quite different from egoism or narcissism...
but i shall not dwell into such philosophical stuff here...
i want to say tt i really value ven n her opinions... n im proud to say tt i have found a couple of ppl in my life whom i really respect...who have each brought n shared with me a precious number of their ideas about life, relationships with ppl etc.... they may differ from mine, but they all have their own clear sense of wat life is all abt...not many ppl have tt, i can safely say. most r too busy with their daily whinings...theres no ans to tt (wat life is abt) n there may never be one but the debates tt we've engaged in definitely taught me a lot n enrich my mind.... so yeah a toast to you guys!
found a pot of gold@ 16:38
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Friday, November 18, 2005
realised tt after my exams i dun feel like blogging anymore.... cos i haveno reason to procrastinate
but yeah went out with ven and jane this evening...and oh i ordered latte...and they actually wrote "Hello" in the foam...it was so cute!!! haha and yeah i realised everytime i talk to ven...well we always have meaningful conversations.... this time with jane..but yeah... i like talking to her...was never and still not really close to her but yeah she's just one of those ppl that u can talk to easily abt anything...no barriers, no holding back..no awkardness...its good i like it....i feel that everyone shd have a fren like that...someone to just u know talk to, to put things abt perspective, to get a different opinion...just that simply...abt anything....religion, life, relationships..all kinds u dun find someone like that easily so yeah im glad i got to know her.... and she dosnt find me intimidating!! haha which is rare...but i think its cos she's more intimidating than me...i mean i find her rather intimidating...and she is cos she can be quite aloof...or calm...depends on how u see it...
oh well im done here..... ciao
found a pot of gold@ 13:44
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005
so aus finally qualified for the world cup after erm 31 years? so its no surprising that there is a MASSIVE amount of noise on the streets right now which is great cept that i have an exam...
actually, i dun mind the noise that much...i think its really funny...besides i havent been studying much since 6pm anyway and honestly i dun much give a damn too even though im so screwed...
so yeah party in the streets im real tempted to go downstairs and join them... looks fun...crazy delirious guys...probably drunk too running amock on the roads...yeah roads with cars coming straight at them.... one thing abt the aussies...they are all crazy...the drivers dun actually mind the guy running ard in the middle of the road they just drive past him....this couple was standing at the junction beside my apartment and they were just shouting at every car that goes past and the people in the cars will be honking away and cheering with them....yes WITH them.... drums...horns the such... and this guy with a flag just ran towards on coming traffic and the people in the cars just reach out their hands and high 5 him as he past... now tts a sight to see...when will we ever get that in sg?
imagine....same scenario:
guy in middle of street with sg flag (u mean people actually own one???? much less bring them out...and *gulp* its not even national day!) running towards on coming traffic in celebration...
*honk honk honk*
"oei! u want to die issit? u want to die go somewhere else to die, dun get me in trouble ok.....i dun want to go to jail....CB!"
ok though they will prob do it more vulgarly and with more hokkien terms inserted....
man i love aussie... so everyone together now...
AUSSIE AUSSIE AUSSIE!
OEI! OEI! OEI!
found a pot of gold@ 12:55
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Tuesday, November 15, 2005
since im nice...i always am....
ppl check out
ShindiG, 3rd Dec, Indochine
www.thepartypeople.com.sg
found a pot of gold@ 13:06
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Monday, November 14, 2005
underage ppl stay out for this post...
here's a great excuse to be randy....check out
www.masturbateforpeace.com
i think yiwei will like it a lot....somehow... checkout the vibrators for women too... hilarious....
in lester's words...
I cum in peace...
found a pot of gold@ 10:35
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Sunday, November 13, 2005
omg...i want this!
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and this!
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and this!
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and most definitely this!
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it cost 290 pounds by the way
and this too hopefully
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oooo this looks nice
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this looks good too
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ok i would go on but im too lazy... check out http://www.mclaren.com/store/nonmembers/indexframe.htm
found a pot of gold@ 23:46
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on looking..again.. at the gross pic tt i have below, came to realised tt the guy in the tkgs uniform is the ugliest....wat the hell is he doing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway went back to UC yest n i realised tt i miss UC alot!!!!
i miss my lil room in syme A with its nice lil view out to the rose garden
i miss my 2 lovely neighbours, dawn n juliette n our lil gossip session whenever one of us is doing our laundry (usually dawn) n forgetting abt the time n not doing any work
i miss the short trips to the lib to print my notes (it was at the end of the corridor from my room n now i have to walk all the way to sch...)
i miss complaining abt college food
i miss how we used to linger ard after dinner to chat in the dining hall until the work scheme peeps have to chase us away
i miss our impromptu movie sessions in eithe charles'or mike's room
i miss being a pirate by downloading loads of shows off the network
i miss bitching in marius n irv's room where all the juiciest gossips are
i miss being able to run ard in college n to huiying's room with my mclaren cap on whenever mclaren won
i miss everyone getting together n going out of college n taking over tram no. 19 in the process so tt we can get to the city...
ok i would go on but im sleepy....
found a pot of gold@ 06:44
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Thursday, November 10, 2005
ok i love the poem on my main page...dun u thinnk its meaningful? go read it... me and joyce love it....
anyway both of us have been talking about songs recently...and i have been telling her abt MY songs... well i have 2...... one is Life for Rent by Dido...which i find so so so me and i love it so...its my THEME! and the other is a song that im gonna share with my guy if i ever find one... i LOVE it, have always love it....he must dedicate it to me or i'll dump him...haha so here it issssssssssssssss...........
The Way You Look TonightSome day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.
Yes you're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.
With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.
Lovely ... never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it ?
'cause I love you ... just the way you look tonight.
Mm, mm, mm, mm,
Just the way you look to-night.
found a pot of gold@ 07:33
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Wednesday, November 09, 2005
ok im officially in love with tar's site....she re-flamed my love for ireland! woohoo... her site is soooo pretty..... and irishy.... just lacking the leprechauns! wooohoo! dancing leprechauns!!!!!! i want a little leprechaun!!!! make a site for me!!!! me want leprechauns! and their little pot of gold cos i wanna go shopping!!!
so if anyone has the add to her site...go see... the link i have is to her old one... and i dunno if she would want me to publish her new add here......
oh another note...
whoever says mcq is easy...well its NOT! bloody psych exam..maybe cos its psych.. and they are psycho-ing with us... tts like one of the mind-boggliing exams ive ever taken... they KNOW! tts one thing abt psych exams..u always wonder if the person who set it is psychoing with u.........
and yeah its not easy too cos if u think abt it, u only have a 1/4 chance of getting the qns correct... tts 25%... sure u dun have to study as hard..and memorise as much crap but still... u'll have to be 100% sure of ur answer... no ticam ticam... throwing of rubber-handmadeonthespot dice or elimination (they are psychologists! they KNOW!and they are prepared!) i would rather sit for smth which i know i have a higher chance of getting points for!
found a pot of gold@ 01:48
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Tuesday, November 08, 2005
interesting conversations i ahve been having of late....
#1 with brendon...who else...
(these are not quoted directly since i forgot to save it)
bren: yooooo
yo: wat?
bren: when u come back im gonna weigh 500kg!
yo: haha
yo: arent u already??
bren: no! im 485kg now
yo: KG?????
bren: yeah
bren: im moving to woodlands soon...
yo: why!!!!! u can't bring me for prata anymore!!!!
bren: im moving to the pig farm there....
yo: ..............
#2 with someone else
marius: message her
marius: im not in college..im at home... ok im going to shower now...wanna join me? lol
yo: ....................
marius: i'll take that as a yes!
WAT THE.... firstly i would never imagine mariuss to say smth like that...and yeah there's no secondly...
#3 with bren again
but this i cant say.... ask me.... haha too mean
found a pot of gold@ 15:59
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Sunday, November 06, 2005
i hate hate hate hate cultural studies!
remind me not to take it ever again...
i have no idea why i took it this sem....cos i didnt know wat else to take?
sigh...
i dun hate it...
i just hate doing essays...i hate doing THIS essay... i love cultural studies...i think its damn interesting but i just dun want to do the damn bloody shit of an essay....
and i hate it even more cos i havent been sleeping well lately...
contemplating getting sleeping pills for my inability to sleep...
me!?!?!?!! not being able to sleep... let me tell u this is the worst feeling ever...i feel like a living dead.... i want to sleep but i just cant sleep..not cos of assignments or anything...i just can't sleep! i have to force myself to sleep and when tt happens, i only slept for 1/2hr.... no shit... and its not tt i am not tired...
well im not tired but im not full of energy as well..im bloody lethargic when im awake and i still cant fall asleep...and its not like i can do my assignment cos i cant think cos i cant sleep.... and im not making sense ehre but I WANT TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!! everytime i get tired and tries to sleep i never sleep.... sigh... am i suffering for insomnia? and i get sleepy at weird times....like in the morning at 11am...or when im supposed to be doing my work...bloody hell....
ARGH! i hate this essay! 1200 more words to go! its due at 5pm so i have exactly 12 1/2hrs to do it...
found a pot of gold@ 17:20
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Thursday, November 03, 2005
here it is...long over due...if anyone is still interested
me, brenda, sookee and ginny
picture of the ball i went for... there's only one cos its the only decent one i can find...of me... pictures are always nice when u look good in it... but i say its decent cos i think i look crap in it... best of the craps...
makes me want to give up taking pics all together... no pics no more...
anyway i think putting up too many pics of the same event/function/place/time is redundant basically cos i look the same anyway, just in different pose... cut my head and imagine me sitting/standing/sitting with different ppl/standing with different ppl... there u go... mental representations of me at the ball.....isnt it even more interesting than seeing the actual thing? ur working ur brain at the same time too.... slows down the decay of the brain..u know senile.... may work as well as mahjong in that aspect..
this is me high on lack of sleep and coffee...no the lack of sleep is not caused by the coffee....the coffee is preventation from me falling asleep for the rest of day cos i couldnt get to sleep last night.....
now this is me being long winded
found a pot of gold@ 23:15
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resent...
its something im full of lately, and its something im not particularly proud of...
why resent?
is it because u cant have the same, and u try to push it away by hating it
is it because u think the world is unfair
is it because u dun get wat u give
is it because u know u'll never be as good
is it because u will never know what its like
i know i shdnt be feeling this way
and i dun want to
but all i feel is resentment for everything
and i hate it
im taught never to be resentful
but i am
and i know i shd stop
but i cant help it
i need sleep
found a pot of gold@ 15:22
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Tuesday, November 01, 2005
i have a 2 2500 word essays and im doing one...
my word count? almost 4k and i have yet to write my 2 para intro...... nor add in most of my references.....
good?
NO! cos it means i need to spend more time on it...after i get my sleep...at 9am in the morning... yes im up all night... not cranky but high... ive been waking up to see the sun SET recently and go to bed after sunrise.... how great is tt! and i have yet to mug for my psych on tues which i can only spend at most 2 days on cos i have another stupid essay due on monday.....
bloody bloody bloody hell...
i shall not resort to V
i shall not resort to V
i shall not resort to V
i shall not resort to V*
*V- a red bull-like drink tt is supposedly way stronger than red bull....
found a pot of gold@ 20:36
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