Friday, June 23, 2006
Got my licence!
Phew...
finally....
found a pot of gold@ 03:28
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Tuesday, June 13, 2006
in line with the world cup, here's a pic...
spread the love ppl, spread the love
found a pot of gold@ 07:14
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Monday, June 05, 2006
just dropping a post in the midst of this crazy exam period...though it may not be the most positive one....
so anyway....
ever had one of those incidents..whereby u say something. to someone..well u state something...though its not a positive thing..but usually the harsh reality... and then the "thing" comes back and bite ur fren in his or her face and u just have the urge to say "i told you so" but then u usually dun, 'cos usually the person u direct the statement to is generally someone u give a damn about and u really do honestly and sincerely wish it didnt have to come to the "i told u so" part but its so blatantly obvious tt u just had to bite ur tongue just to keep those 4 words in?
well i have... and its the hardest ive ever bitten my tongue cos of who the person is...
its not easy...and i dun mean the part abt me biting my tongue...
everyone and anyone who's known me will know im not the easiest person to be ard...simply 'cos im too strong on my opinions... i give it, whether or not its wanted...
and u may not always know...that i genereally give my opinions about something... to YOU...ABOUT YOU... only...when i give a fucking damn..
now im not saying that im one of those "i hurt u cos i love you" BS... i just AM opinionated and a lil pushy in my beliefs..well lil is relative i guess... i just think ppl could just open their eyes n see the things i see for themselves... even just for a while....
and also..its not tt i dun give my opinions about smth abt someone i dun care abt... which a couple of ppl truly well know.... i still give my opinions...about you....but NOT TO YOU.... hey who says im perfect?
so i digressed...
as i was saying i usually only say smth to u only when its annoying me...but in a positive way...as in the annoying part... the i-care-hence-im-annoyed way
anyway with respect to said person.... 9 or of 10 times when i just have to say something, i always felt horrible after that. maybe i shouldnt have said it...maybe i was wrong... maybe i was too paranoid or too pessimistic... but 9 out of 10 times... i was right... which made me felt worst...
see ive experienced some things...met some ppl in this short life ive had so far.. which made me lose faith in some things...some issues... perhaps even in people... im one of those practical bitch u see in movies who always tries to dampen the spirits of the idealistic lead..
now ive always had mixed feelings abt the to-say-or-not-to-say part... on the one hand... i wish that said person..or anything other person ive push this onto will be able to see that the world is not as perfect as they seem... i want to warn them that people are not always wat they seem... the world may be dark at times... and they shd be a lil more onguard... that daddy n mommy cant shelter them all the time even if they want to. i believed tt though it may be too harsh, it better than watching them get hurt eventually...even if i cant prevent so..at least i can prepare them right?
on the other hand... i think it will be sad if everyone turns out just like me... hardly any evidence of faith left in almost everything...its good to have faith..its a good thing.... but its a thin line between faith and naiveity...
oh well..just rambling...
i dun want to end on this note...letting you think im some gothic suicidal pillpopping person..im not.... im happy with who i am... ive found a nice balance within myself (though not everyone may like it).... im not saying i think im perfect...i know there's room for improvement(s)... but im at ease with myself 'cos ive found a way, my way...to do so
found a pot of gold@ 15:19
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"One Art"
The art of losing isn't hard to master;
So many things seem filled with the intent
To be lost that their loss is no disaster.
Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost keys, the hour badlly spent
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.
I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owne, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.
-Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.
-Elizabeth Bishop
